Happy Anniversary Jerry

May 19, 1990

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Five weeks is too little

We let him go

We had no sudden healing

To think that providence

Would take a husband from his wife

While she prays, is appalling

Who told us we'd be rescued

What has changed and

Why should we be saved from nightmares

We're asking why this happens to us

Who have died to live, it's unfair

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This is what it means to be held

How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life

And you survive

This is what it is to be loved and to know

That the promise was when everything fell

We'd be held

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This hand is bitterness

We want to taste it and

Let the hatred numb our sorrows

The wise hand opens slowly

To lilies of the valley and tomorrow

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This is what it means to be held

How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life

And you survive

This is what it is to be loved and to know

That the promise was when everything fell

We'd be held

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If hope is born of suffering

If this is only the beginning

Can we not wait, for one hour

Watching for our savior

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This is what it means to be held

How is feels, when the sacred is torn from your life

And you survive

This is what it is to be loved and to know

That the promise was when everything fell

We'd be held

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This is a song called "Held" by Natalie Grant that has spoken to me since Jerry's death. I changed a few words in the beginning to fit my particular situation. It is a powerful song of God's love holding us and sustaining us through unspeakable pain. God never promised that we'll be saved from the nightmares of this life, but He does promise that when everything falls He'll be there to hold us.

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This is a particularly hard day, but I'm anxiously awaiting our reunion Jerry!

Happy 19th Anniversary

I love You,

Candy