Today is Joshua's 9th birthday. It seems unbelievable that he could already be 9 years old. To the left is a picture of Joshua when he was a little one year old...where did the time go?
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Birthday celebrations are somewhat overwhelming for me these days. However, I'm able to hide it very well and the kids are able to enjoy their "happy day" without even knowing the silent heartache that swells within me for them. It was exactly this time 3 summers ago that we moved to California and Joshua turned 6 just a few days after we moved into our new home. Now it is 3 years later, he is turning 9 years old, and so much in our life and family has changed since then. Joshua's world has literally been turned upside down since the celebration of his birthday last year.
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The only way I can best describe what I feel is that it's like our life is like an "Etch-a-Sketch" toy that had a beautiful picture of our family drawn on it and without warning it was violently shaken and the whole picture as we knew it was erased. Just like with an Etch-a-Sketch there are no pieces to pick up afterward...you just have to start your drawing all over again and adjust to the fact that the picture will not look exactly the same as it did before. Yes, there are many memories that help to form our new and adjusted life, but it will never be the same as before.
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Yet even in all of this nothing that has happened throughout the past year has slipped by God unnoticed. The God who is in control of today is also the God who is fully in control of tomorrow. He already knows what tomorrow is going to look like and He is prepared for what is going to happen. God has already anticipated the problems we will face tomorrow and has set into motion everything required to resolve those problems.
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In spite of the fact that the Etch-a-Sketch drawing of our family is very much misshapen right now and slowly being redrawn, God has forever been faithful and He laid out a beautiful day today for Joshua and blessed him richly with friends, family, love and happiness. I think Jerry was pleased as he watched his little Joshua eat his cupcake today!
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Candy
3 comments:
Thank you for sharing your heart and family with us in your blog. We love you! your friendship is a true blessing. -Jill Baker
I graduated high school with Jerry and still reside in Texas. As an avid blogger, I turn to your blog from time to time and wish to say to you that I gain much strength from your postings. Jerry was such a good person. Blessed was he to have had such a wonderful family and vice versa - I am sure.
BTW: I watched Le Tour de France this year as I have for several years and often thought of Jerry because of your blog. Next year (July 2010), Lord willing, I plan to travel to France to watch 1 stage of the Tour or all of them in person until their arrival in Paris (Champs-Elysées).
Candy, as usual I'm inspired by your entry. We love you. I think about you and pray for you and the kids often. God is good!
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