Hello Dear Friends, I have so many thoughts throughout the day and have so much I want to say, but it is nearly impossible to find the time right now to sit down and blog (but I love doing it when I get the chance). I am somewhat overwhelmed with the responsibility that I have been left with knowing that I am a single mother now and don't have Jerry to help with anything regarding the kids, home, finances, family decisions, etc. Many of you have commented that this blog has been an "inspiration" to you, and I just want each of you to know that my strength only comes from God and He is what sustains me. I am still human too! I still feel the sting of pain and I definitely have my share of heartaches, but my hope remains in the fact that I can still call upon HIS name. I certainly don't claim to be holier than thou! I'm just a simple sinner who has received God's good grace, somehow! I am grieving the loss of Jerry very heavily and am just so extremely sad. EVERYTHING reminds me of him right now. Many of you have asked to help and I know that each of you would in any way possible, and truly the only thing that you can do right now is to continue to love my family and pray for us. And, please know that I welcome and cherish memories you have of Jerry. Several of you have shared even simple little memories that you have of even Jerry interacting with your children perhaps on the ball field, etc. Also, I want you to know that it is not a taboo to say his name! Please, feel free to talk about him when you talk to me and refer to him by name! I think back to Jerry's Memorial Services (both the one in CA and AR) and am still truly humbled by the outpouring of love and support. Even in the beginning, both Jerry and I were so moved by the love that was shown to us when we first found out that he had cancer. We kept looking at each other and would cry and just say, "Lord, who are WE that people would care so much about US?" There are so many of you that traveled a great distance just to attend his service in Little Rock. I am still in shock. There was family and/or friends that came from Texas, Oklahoma, Kansas, Minnesota, North and South Carolina, Pennsylvania, Hawaii, Tennessee and perhaps others. On top of this, there are many friends of Jerry's parents and my parents that traveled from Batesville and Jonesboro out of love and support of our parents in their time of need. Thank you, dear friends, thank you for honoring Jerry's memory and honoring me with your presence at his service. And thank you too Steve & Patti and Craig for attending his CA service from Napa and San Francisco. I know it wasn't easy - especially considering his CA service was on a Tuesday and that is a 5+ hour drive. I really appreciate all you dear friends, and I sincerely hope that you know that I mean it! I have more to say, but it will have to be at a later time. And, I still have some sweet and funny things to share that occured when my family and siblings were in California with me helping after Jerry's death...so stay tuned! 2 Corinthians 4:16-18 Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. !!! Praying boldly in Him! Candy